October 13, 2007
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Does Life Really Suck?
A LIST Nonsense
Well it has been almost a year since EVERYTHING changed in my life. Let me explain, this time last year...
1. I was in the middle of a divorce after 18 years of marriage
2. My precious dog Dukie was killed
3. My very best friend in the WHOLE world moved away
4. Both of my sons were attacked (personal)
5. I found a ton of grey hair in my head!!!
Well God is good all the time and my marriage has been healed, whew! my dog is still gone, but I still love him. My best friend, Deanna is gone, but we talk everyday thank you Verizon. My sons are doing great, Jesus not only saves, but He heals. I found Henna for my hair! This is much better than hair color and it covers great!
I am going to be 38 this year (Nov 4), geesh! My kids are 17-13-10- and 5 yearsold! Jim and I celebrated 19 years of marriage, yep its hard. This is why I took the year off. I had a lot of real work to do. When you get to the bottom, seriously it sucks. When the pain is so beyond unbearable, it sucks. When you feel all alone and everything that can go wrong is going wrong, it sucks. When you just no longer want to live, it sucks. When shopping doesnt help, it sucks. When you realize Oprah really knows nothing, it sucks, When you realize abortion really is murder, it sucks (really bad). When you realize it really is your fault, it sucks.
When you get there, and unfortunatly if you havent been, you will its just a matter of time, we all go. But when you get there if you can just somehow look deep inside, forget all the crap you have read, or heard, just look deep inside you will find something so precious, so rare, so impossible, so illogical.
You will find the only one who can help!
Jesus Chirst
EDIT: i wanted to add this one thing. there is a very special person here on Xanga, most of you know him Randy from Borelfoto. In the midst of all of this, somehow he knew something was wrong and called me all the way from Calfornia. That is super awesome, we have never met in person, but someday we will and i cant wait. He really encouraged me and truely it helped. So Randy, THANK YOU!
We miss you Dukie
(he is the black one)
Comments (7)
Dearest Sandy...
When I got down to the bottom of your post, I couldn't beleive what I read?!.
I may have been the one that called you on the phone, but it really was our Lord Jesus who put you in my heart to really pray for you and contact you with the words I spoke on the phone that day so long ago.
I am soooo glad you and the hubby are working things out and are getting well, the whole family needs to grow and heal. This just shows everyone how the power of Prayer works and that our God is a Awsome God!!!!!
Here is what I want you to do today...Go with your family and look for a new Dukie Jr. 2nd. I bet you have more friends than you thought. If you attend a church make it a point to join a womens bible study to meet others who are beleivers like you, heck these are the people we are going to be spending eternaty with!
Your post also mentions how things "Suck". Yep, life does at times. These are the times that we turn to our heavenly father, he loves it when we come to him, we learn from him and our eyes are opened. Almost everytime I hit bottom, he lifts me up. When I see darkness, he shows me light. When I feel alone, he comforts me. When I feel the whole world is against me, his word (The Bible) assure's me that this world is not what I should be impressed with or live my life by.
I know many people who are super wealthy that are so sad and depressed and feel they are alone, they are if they don't have God in there life. So many feel that wealth will bring happiness, comfort them and make them feel great...NOT!
The truth is that we all just want to be loved, appreaciated and aknowledged. We want a couple of really close friends and our favorite pet to love us up when knowones around. These things are what we really want and need.
So, when you're feeling down and feel all alone, remember you're not alone and that Jesus is right there with you all the time through thick and thin Baby!!!
God Bless, Love ya kiddo!
Randy
Wow, Sandy! What an incredible testimony of how God can bring beauty from ashes. That is so exciting about you and your husband. I'm very happy for you!
Wow, Randy said it all. We all have stories, and the amazing thing about it all is the ONE connective tissue between it all is GOD, his Son Jesus that provided salvation for us all.
When my marriage was rocked and nearly ended two years ago, it was the women in my church that surrounded me, helped me to stand firm in God, while my Darling, went a bit of the deep end, if I hadn't had God lifting my heart up, I wouldn't have made it through that winter and our marriage would be over. I truly believe that marriage is one of the toughest roads to walk in life. Parenthood is the other, but you expect difficulties with parenthood, especially since you were a child once yourself. But nothing really prepares you for the complete and thorough thrashing that marriage does to your "self". I had this ridiculous notion of coffee and toast in the morning, him going off to work, rocking babies, and happily ever after. And while that did/and still does happen, it's the compromising, the fighting, the different needs, differing opinions...everything. I applaude you and your husband for making it work, it is so very easy to give up. Our society makes it very easy to just give up. May God Bless you continually for your efforts. Have a glorious weekend Sandy....
Christy
WOW Christy..
Yes I shoot so many weddings and I always wonder "IF" they really realize what it is they are embarking on. How important the teeter totter is and that as it does go back and forth, up and down that it doesnt have to if Jesus is siting in the middle, keeping it centered!
Sandy, Wow... what an incredible post. It's always so amazing when I read when our dear Lord has made his connection with someone. It happened for me about 3.5 years ago. I wish it was sooner but I'm ever so grateful it happened at all. Once I opened my heart wholeheartedly, my life changed dramatically. I'm so sorry that you had to go through all that to find out how awesome God is. There isn't a day that goes by that Bob and I don't thank our dear Lord for all our blessings. I'm so happy that you were able to work through your hard times with your husband. Bob and I struggled the year we brought our kids home and it was the hardest year of our marriage... but we worked through it and life is good. Every day we work to make our marriage as good as it is. I'm so proud of what we have accomplished. I'm proud of our marriage and our family. And it feels so good. I'm proud of you! Thanks for the wonderful post and sharing your life with us all. May you continue to receive God's blessings every day of your life! ~ Dawn
Thank you Dawn, i do want to say that i have been a Christian since 1995. I went through incredible inner healing from a horrible childhood. It is through this with my faith that helped me over come and indure my marriage. i talk to so many people that get to the end of their rope and seem to have no hope, hence me saying when you get there, look because there is hope..
You and Bob are sooo totally awesome. I love reading about the two of you and your adorable kids. I love seeing the incredible sucess that you have, not only as photographers but as a family.
It's so nice to hear people talking about Jesus like that. Miracles do happen everyday. I've experienced it myself and will never forget it. Thank you for sharing your story. Especially after I had such a hectic day all day, had 2 nights with no sleep, sleep plus did a bridal show yesterday on my birthday. Finally tonight I'll get some sleep, thanks to a sleeping pill ... LOL Bless you Sandy, your a kind person and I appreciate you and everyone being there for me when I've been down and depressed because of my Mom's cancer. It's great having all of you as friends. Take care, Cathy Ann
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